Few things. We'll start with the funny stuff get into the seriously bullshit, and then to the sad shit.
So the happy stuff first

# 1
So my dad took the car to take my mom out for her birthday, and I had to drive the giant 15-year-old astro van to work.
While driving this giant pedo-ish looking vehicle I decided to play "sex and drugs" by Hyper Crush....
... I just question: why did all the children run away?

#2
A conversation between me and my best bro about beach day! (A day where you skip school to go to the beach because it's the first Friday of June)
Shawn: Oh yeah I'm going to skip for Beach day.
Me: Yeah I am too, but I'm going to go fishing.
Shawn: FISHING?! REALLY?! FISHING?!
Me: JUST LET ME BE WHO I AM SHAWN!!!!

Now into serious crap.

#1
I am stressing out because I have a 2000 word essay due tomorrow with only 300 words written. FUCK.

Now sad stuff.

#1
This is a conversation between me and a guy I work with
Guy: So are you going to prom?
Me: no.
Guy: Did you have a prom date?
Me: No...?
Guy: Why not?!
Me: Well no one likes me.
Guy: Why?
Me: Cause I'm weird and nerdy and not a lot of guys like that.
Guy: ... Some guys like that.
Me: Some guys, but usually not the right ones...
Guy: I know a lot of guys at my school who would, instead of the prep ones who go to your school.
Me: ... Well... That's your school.

The thing is, no one likes me. I might look pretty in all my photo's but I had a few years where I looked BAD, like I looked really ugly.
Not that it's a bad thing because that allowed me to develop my personality, I have this really weird out-of-the-box personality.
But now it's like... What I said was "I'm weird and nerdy and not a lot of guys like that"
What I meant was: I'm weird and ugly and the fact that I'm a LITTLE cute now does NOT weigh out the fact that I'm weird and nerdy.
I'm not a 'pretty' or 'beautiful' nerdy girl, I'm not someone who someone else dates.
The most attention I get from any guys is either 'friendzone' which I don't mind, I love ALL of my guy friends.
Or... I get the 'fuck buddy zone,' which I know some people don't even get that.
But It's like... Can I just be something MORE for ONCE instead of just... that?

On another notes, I have tumblr now.
messyaseff, and if you follow me I follow back :/